Difficulties?! Lets start there. First off I'm 24, and happily married. So far, on my second pregnancy but this will be my first born due to the last one being miscarried at 9 weeks pregnant. A miss miscarriage meaning my body didn't recognize that I was pregnant to begin with. On top of that took a couple of weeks after that to even start the process of passing the baby. Yes, I did it naturally. A painful experience, and one many people do not tell you what to expect. It seems that most of life you go on with out people telling you the whole truth about pregnancy's. Second time round and I still feel out of the loop when dealing with a new issue every day or every other week or when every it occurs.
So, back to the Difficulties, after having a miscarriage once I was labeled early on by every doctor I saw during this pregnancy so far as a high risk patient. So, with that hanging on my head being the first difficulty not feeling comfortable at the doctors because no matter what I will always be the one who miscarried. Yes, it's true miscarriages happen often but when it happens to you, you have the ability to sympathies with others. Which brings me to another frustrating thing I learned early in my first pregnancy. Apparently its a genetic trait in my family for first time pregnancies to miscarry. Great so another frustrating thing hanging over my head and still hanging over my head. Will I ever be able to have a normal healthy pregnancy and carry a baby full term with out worry about health issues occurring. Is there something wrong with me?! Am I making some points here to help you understand the point of difficulties yet? This is just a tip of the ice burg from my life so far. I'm 33 weeks pregnant, and going in to the doctor tomorrow for my fourth ultrasound. Yes, fourth. At 21 weeks we found out that our little baby boy, Drexel Lee has according to the specialist doctor we saw a heart defect, lungs that I am still unsure what or if anything was wrong with, and then the kidneys which they couldn't see well enough to tell how developed they were or if they were even there. Oh, and apparently within two days I went from having low amniotic fluid to none.
All this being said, many people who have been asking questions which, I will gladly answer here and in person about this pregnancy will get a new look on how I have really been doing. I've been keeping my mouth shut because I was, am and still trust that GOD is in control! Not the doctors and not the nurses. Not the insurance companies and not the people who answer the phones and call to give you information after appointments. GOD is always in control. I may be frustrated but when it comes to my baby's life I am not giving up. If I gave up on my boy I would be no better then the doctors so there is a brief insight on just a little bit of my personal difficulties on being pregnant.
Oh, but one more thing! A blessing really, I have been just about perfect this whole pregnancy despite the whole health issue deal. Perfect meaning other than getting sick early on but that was just once. Very little nausea and mild back pain, and only just recently have I started having an occasional braxton hicks. How wonderful is that blessing that on top of all this stress. Yes, it's been stressful I'm not perfect and I do worry, but I will always keep my head up and praise my God for giving me this opportunity to have a baby! One with me and one with Him! I will meet you one day my little sweet heart! And Drexel I will meet you soon sweet boy! Being pregnant may be difficult but I will take it because God has blessed me more so than I could ever imagine!
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