Into the planning stages of a difficult birth.

Difficulties? Yeah, so apparently nothing has changed our poor little baby boy is not making any progress with developing kidneys, and even his bladder. I'm 33 weeks pregnant and he hasn't turned head down. With that being said, and the no amniotic fluid he doesn't have the ability to turn on his own. According to our doctor, breach births are not practiced any more making it difficult for doctors even good doctors to know how to handle that situation. So with that being on the table I am now having a c section in 4-5 weeks. I'm not due for 7 weeks. Our doctor made it pretty clear he doesn't want me to go into labor especially early labor so now I can't even really go on walks any more because my braxton hicks start up so definitely no walking by myself.

I have two more weeks until my next appointment and probably only two more weeks after that. This next week should be going pretty fast at this point I have low energy, and don't really feel like doing much yet I know there are definitely things that need to be done. By keeping myself busy being around family, and small groups of people it's always nice to not feel alone where I can not feel so alone. Being alone is good in small amounts or after a big event allowing for your body to rest, and heal.

Vbs is over after family night tonight, this next week I will work on a few things to get them done and organized, and get ready for family to come to town for the c-section. I've got a lot of preparing to do, and a lot of it mentally. I am very thankful for our fence that means that Mia can go out, and play with out me watching her all of the time! I am definitely ready for some cooler weather that way we can spend some more time outside in the evenings. Having a back yard is actually something that we can do together, and enjoy being together with out spending so much money.

I guess, what I'm saying is I'm in the process of taking in this new information, and actually trying to deal with it in the way God wants me to. I know he still has a plan, it may not be the plan I want. But, I know he has a plan. All I can do is continue to worship him, and pray for little baby Drexel, and be thankful that even if I don't get to take him home or only get him for a short while I know that he will be with our heavenly father, and his sweet sibling. A song from Vbs we sang with the kids this morning is stuck in my head. "It's our father's house, a big big house with lots of room"! One day I will be in that big house with lots of room.